I really really hate that I'm doing this but I just need to vent. Luckily only a select few of my friends actually know this blog even exists so I don't really have to worry about anyone I know thinking I'm crazy, just you my reader, a complete stranger (in most cases..).
Things at work have spiralled out of control, and they seem to have gone that way very quickly. I have mentioned a time or two on here that I'm not happy but on Friday my misery reached epic proportions. Here's how it went down...
The shortened version is that work was organising a social lunch and, let's call him Dave, Dave was in charge of organising it. Yet no matter what day he picked someone was going to miss out, after volunteering myself to miss out (I'll be honest my motives were purely selfish - I didn't want to go) it was decided that we would go on a Thursday, a day which I could go (damn!) and a day which only one person wouldn't be able to attend. On every other day at least two people would've had to miss out, so "Dave" decided that Thursday would have the least amount of casualties and went ahead with organising it.
That was an entire week before the scheduled lunch. Not a word was said, not a single complaint was heard. Now it just so happens that it was one of the girls in office birthday on Thursday so on the day we were set to go to lunch, as her birthday buddy, I was instructed to bring a cake to work. On the morning of the lunch a girl who had remained quiet on the issue decided to voice her concerns about the fact that she was the one missing out and took it to the boss deciding that somehow I had organised the event intentionally so that she would miss out. Let's just revisit the previous paragraph - not only did I offer to miss out, but I had nothing to do with organising it, "Dave" did all that.
The girl was on work all afternoon that took her out of the office and so I waited till the absolute last moment to have the cake (the birthday girl was going home!) in the hope that she might return in time (she hadn' t bothered to tell anyone when she would be getting back). Anyway, cake was served and the birthday girl was offered the last of the cake to take home. It wasn't until the birthday girl was in her car and on her way home that I realised we had forgotten to save the whinging girl a piece of cake. There was nothing I could do, but given that we were all adults I assumed that she would understand it was an honest mistake.
That wasn't to be. Instead she went to the boss complaining that I had manipulated the whole thing against her and that I was obviously bullying her and she was thinking about filing a harrassment claim. That's right, a harrassment claim over a piece of cake. You know, it wasn't even that bit that really upset me, it was the fact that the boss called me and one other girl into the office and screamed at us over the whole ordeal. She never asked for our version of events, refused to acknowledge that we didn't organise the lunch, would not accept that it was an honest mistake forgetting to save her a piece and then promptly filed an official report against the both of us.
I know that sometimes I can exaggerate but that honestly is what happened. That is the whole story. Over one piece of cake I have had disciplinary action taken against me and have now been told that I will be having counselling to ensure that I deal with the situation. What the fuck is going on??????? I still can't get my head around it and I am so frustrated and angry by it all. To be honest there have been a few tears shed over it all. Not because I got yelled at, not because I got in trouble or accused, but because it was just assumed that I had done those things, I was never given a chance to explain myself and there was no benefit of the doubt thrown my way. I cried because apparently there are people out there who think that I am capable of manipulating a situation to my own advantage for the purpose of intentionally hurting someone else. That really hurts me. The worst thing though is that "Dave" the organiser hasn't bothered to stand up and say it's his doing. I have spent the last 4months helping him get accredited, going out of my way to ensure that he is qualified in the shortest time possible, but with a solid, strong foundation, and this is how I am repaid. He just stood there and let me take the blame. That has disappointed me to no end. I really want to return the favour and just dump him on his arse, let him get his accreditation without me, but that's not who I am. I don't have that in me. I will continue to help and I probably won't hold it against him. Surely these aren't the actions of a vindictive woman bent on destroying the lives of others?????
Ugh. I feel better that I just went BLAH! and got it all out, but it really doesn't fix anything. I'm still hurting from the assumption that I'm capable of hurting people in that way...
On a positive note I had another massive training session yesterday as I tried to work through my frustration/anger/disappointment. I lifted some of the heaviest weights I've done in years. Positives in the negatives!
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