I Want It Over.

"The brick walss are there to stop the people who don't want it badly enough. They're there to stop the other people..."

I got a reply to my idea about the whole phd thing. I knew it was only a starting place not the be all and end all, but the feedback wasn't as positive as I'd hoped. The lecturer who had been supporting me all along sort of blew me off and made me feel a little like an idiot. It made me feel all alone in this thing. It's been a strange little journey to this point. At every stage people have reassured me that they'll help out or assist me along and yet here I am very much alone without even a little guidance. It's really making me question how badly I want it. Only a few hours ago I was overjoyed at the idea of making progress with it all, and I'm not completely deflated yet, but to be honest I'm not far off it. I'm really struggling with this brick wall because I don't have a clear idea of what I want to achieve. I seem to be the only person in the world who is struggling with a topic. I need direction!!!!!!

Well, carrying on isn't helping anything. I guess it's time to get my head back down and look at the options... Ideas, anyone?