Still Running. Literally. Not Figuritively.

I just went for a run and I absolutely hammered it. Normally I can run 40mins without even thinking about it, but today I just pushed it so hard that twice I had to stop and walk as my heart rate was well over my 190bpm limit. I've got so much anger, frustration and hurt built up inside from what happened at work that I just want to scream. It felt good to pace it out, but at the same time it really doesn't fix anything. Next time I want to set a PB I know what to do though, I'll just do something innocent that can be interpreted the wrong way, I'll nearly lose my job over it and then I'll have all the motivation I need to hammer it home in a good time. ;) Gotta find the positives in the negatives.

I'm trying this new thing where I take a lesson from all the negative experiences I have. Sadly, the only one I've got at this point is that many people will often just think the worst. I don't want to have had a negative experience that ended in a negative lesson. I want to take something positive from it. I guess I could look at it another way and say that we have to be careful in what we do because sometimes you may do something that has absolutely nothing to do with another person, but if they are as shallow, self-obsessed and childish as the girl I had a run in with they may just think that everything you do is about them. Oh wait, that sounds negative too doesn't it? ;)

I think I just have to accept that I got burnt and move on. No amount of thinking about it will change the outcome, and it has been made clear that my opinion on the matter is not important so I guess that's what I'll do. I'll learn that you really do need to keep your friends close and your enemies closer and to assume that there is always someone who thinks that everything you do somehow reflects on them.