I was just thinking how long it has been since I wrote one of these blogs... Quite awhile indeed. I couldn't help but wonder why I write it given that no one ever reads them, as no one knows they're here... Sigh...
Things have not happened with the weight loss. It has been 12months now and everything is still the same. I just got back from Perth and I fell a little bit in love while I was away... Hmmm, when you don't actually talk to the person that may be lust, not love, but whatever. He was a lecturer at one of my courses and there was just something about him. You know when you can just tell? I've only had that feeling twice before in my life and both times it has resulted in long term relationships. I think that's what's making it so hard to forget about him. I know that previously that little voice in my head has been right...
Anyway the reason that it is relevant is that he's a fairly athletic guy (I am not giving too much away!) and I think his athletic lifestyle is helping to motivate me into a healthier one. Not in that 'oh I have to lose weight for him' kinda way, but more in a someone to look up to kind of way. Even though he's a guy he's achieved a lot of the things that I'd like to achieve and is exactly where I'd like to be right now. I guess if I can't have him as my own there's nothing wrong with using him as a marker for my journey, right?
I'm just struggling tonight, I couldn't even count the amount of times I've sighed while writing this... Tomorrow will be better, right?
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